am i alone in this feeling?
i wish i could muster the cojones needed to tell my husband "i want a divorce, move away, not be a jw anymore!".
i find myself screaming these same words over and loud inside my mind, several times a day, and yet on the outside my actions could not be more opposed to these inner feelings.. sometimes i worry that this internal conflict will cause me to go crazy.
Am I alone in this feeling? I wish I could muster the cojones needed to tell my husband "I want a divorce, move away, not be a JW anymore!"
I find myself screaming these same words over and loud inside my mind, several times a day, and yet on the outside my actions could not be more opposed to these inner feelings.
Sometimes I worry that this internal conflict will cause me to go crazy.
Please tell me your experiences just to reassure me that I am not alone in feeling this way.
SL
i seldom hear of people getting df'd anymore.
years ago it seemed there were a few per year in a congregation.
In the Spanish congs where I attend, it would take an act of congress to get disfellowshipped. I mean, it is of public knowledge of young people that are of have fornicated, married ones who have committed adultery and even, yes, a man that has clearly been arrested, jailed, in the newspapers for child abuse and we are still awaiting for disfellowship announcements, and nothing comes.
Mind you that these acts have gone on for a long period of time. When I bring it up to my husband or other elders they just say that I do not know all the details of if the brothers/sisters have repented. What a crock of bull!!!
SL
first off, no, i don't have one.. but, was researching, and this article "when a loved one leaves jehovah" ( sep 1, 2006, p. 17 ), has a box "have you left jehovah.".
this box includes: "you cannot know if you will even be alive tomorrow.
(psalm 102:3; james 4:13, 14) one man who was diagnosed with a terminal illness said: this illness caught me serving jehovah full-time, with no skeletons in my closet.
Fear is the most powerful motivator.
I mean, here I am, truly a non-believer in this faith, and yet, for fear of what my life would be like without my husband, my parents, friends, relatives, I continue to comply; quite minimally, but comply nonetheless.
It is awful in the mind and psyche. Pure mental torture.
SL
http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b055dttx.
the government has announced plans to make it a legal obligation for social workers, teachers and councillors to report child abuse.
the churches' child protection advisory service has called for the proposed law to apply to churches.
Only if they pass a law making it mandatory to report to the authorities sexual abuse will the WT or any other group of people turn in their own.
I can only wish it happens soon here in the USA.
SL
so i had about had enough of reading jw's excuses online about wt child abuse and the candace conti nightline abc video about her case.
this is a really deep burning topic to me as i'm sure it is to many of you.
so today the gloves came off.
I commend you for keeping your composure. Regarding child abuse, the Spanish congs seem oblivious to it, completely ignorant and unfazed by it!
SL
so i was lurking on jwtalk after trying to read the thread on there about the broadcast about the conti case...and holy moly there are some bat ish crazy talk on that site!
they also blocked the thread about the broadcast, lol!
they are scuuuuured (scared).
I can only hope that all this will lead to a policy change where the elders turn in the abusers to the local authorities as soon as the abuse is even suspected. Once if starts hurting the pocket, that is when changes happen.
Way to go Ms. Conti!!!
SL
while it may seem unlikely which of the currant governing body members do you feel would be most likely to defect?
i know it is a loaded question.. what about wealthy anthony morris iii?
or mark sanderson or geoffrey jackson?
Anyone would be stupid to abandon ship. It is such a lucrative business, where they receive the worship only Satan can dream of receiving! No way anyone in their right mind would leave that gig!!!
SL
my wife called me at work saying she is scared after reading today's daily text.
i don't read it anymore, therefore i went online and found this.. tuesday, march 3 .
those days will be cut short.matt.
Today's daily text was surely a scary one for many a JW. This is when knowing TTATT comes in handy the most.
When the fear mongering starts, I just give the neutral blank expression and walk away if possible.
SL
have lurked here for many, many years.
female, latina, middle-aged, born-in, 3rd generation jw, northeast usa.
my fate is to continue to play the game 'till death do us part because the very strong and tangled web of friends, family, business, etc.
have lurked here for many, many years.
female, latina, middle-aged, born-in, 3rd generation jw, northeast usa.
my fate is to continue to play the game 'till death do us part because the very strong and tangled web of friends, family, business, etc.
Thanks to all for the warm welcome.
Any tips on how to get a nice avatar ad much appreciated.
